wicked & divine since 1899

So, wrote this today for the bestie. Kind of weird because I haven't written Obikin in a while and I basically forgot every detail about their dynamic, and TCW and anything else important. Felt nice to write and finish something short and not hold myself to any length or quality requirement. I also really missed using second person and not feeling like trash for it. I'm still deciding if I want to participate in the Obikin Big Bang again this year -- if I did, I would likely just write something around 10k as opposed to embarking on another novel. To be fair, I wrote two 10k pieces in the month of November alone and burned myself out a bit. 

I work 40 hours a week and just don't have the time I once had to write. In college, I was churning out 10k or more a week for academic writing alone and so adding a novel on top of that wasn't a huge challenge. My work-brain is a number-brain just due to the nature of banking and so turning on literary-brain is a challenge sometimes. Not to mention, I'm exhausted all the time and dead broke again, and stressing about my wedding. I love the feeling of little pieces, no due date, no pressure. To be fair, I'm also involved in two ongoing collaborations right now. I need to work my way back up to longer pieces. Unless TCW reboot comes out sooner than I'm thinking, I may not have enough inspiration fodder for the Big Bang.

I guess that's fine, but I kind of planned on participating again because I had so much fun last year. I dunno. I do this thing where I punish myself for not creating enough, not wanting to create more, and overcreating as opposed to being "productive" so I guess there's no winning. It's no surprise I write self-deprecating characters so well. It's cold here but no snow -- I'm tired of winter already. Really grateful I have people in my life who support my writing -- I just have a hard time being one of them.